Masculine Energy for Women - (or…where’s my teenage angst?)
By Kyle | October 6, 2008
Combining our feminine and masculine aspects is really important for women. Most women are comfortable being understanding, expressing support, sharing their hearts with others, helping people in their lives, taking care of people - but often having difficulty standing their ground when they need to.
It’s a cultural thing. Since around 3800 B.C.E., women have had to depend on men in all ways. (Prior to this time frame women were the leaders… it was the transition from matriarchy to what we have now, patriarchy). Because the imprint is in there… in the fibers of a female’s mind… (if I don’t behave I won’t have a place to live, my children will starve, I’ll starve, I’ll be hurt… etc. etc.), women can tend to behave more timid or less aligned to truly asking or demanding what they want.
Currently, women don’t have to do it this way. We are not dependent on anyone for our goodies… we are generally “running the show”. It’s critical that women learn how to bring more of their masculine energy up to the surface in order to be firm and bring more things into form.
Feminine energy is nuturing, intuitive and brings spirit to earth. Masculine energy allows that “idea” to be brought into form in the world. Yet, when we are firm or insistent it can be uncomfortable for us, or people discount what’s shared, minimize our input, make us wrong or downright ignore us so we often refrain from that kind of clarity. Instead of being perceived as “firm” we are percieved as a “nagging female” or worse, a “bitch”.
Bringing a strong sense of your ability to “get things done” on any level is how you are already utilizing your masculine side. Making an effort to do that emotionally is yet another step in the right direction. We all love men who can be vulnerable and express their feelings, while at the same time, they are strong and deliberate in their actions. It can become refreshing for a woman to be firm, loving and direct without apology or adjustment.
Just a little food for thought.
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Soul’s Talk and “The She Factor”
By Kyle | October 5, 2008
Every moment, there are signals and messages coming into your awareness from your soul, but it’s likely that you aren’t always hearing it or listening to that voice. Most of us listen to our minds, not our souls because its just so loud, seeming very real or more important than the quieter voice inside your mind.
Your soul has a quiet voice that tells you to “make a right” when you’re driving and once you do, you discover that you just avoided an accident on the road. Or… the voice that says “there’s negativity here” and you decide not to go to the restaurant you thought you wanted to have dinner at and walk down the street a bit to have dinner at a new restaurant and you find it is delicious.
Of late, there’s so much information floating around about how bad things are in the economy (among other things), which makes it even more difficult to listen to your soul. The noise of your mind is combining with the noise of many other people’s minds… or the collective energy of fear.
My personal goal has been to listen to the call of my soul and honor it. What I’m finding that’s so remarkable is that I’m peaceful and happy much of the day by simply honoring the value of being here, of experiencing life, of trusting that all is well… even with my “reality” being upside down and challenging. It surprises me… the feelings of joy and appreciation I have welling up inside of me…
This week I spent two days with Lorrie Morgan Ferrero and a collection of beautiful people, who I now consider “friends”. We were attending The She Factor her new workshop focused on marketing to women held in Diamond Bar, California. It was incredible. Not only was it the first time I ventured out of my “retreat” mode of 4 months mingling with others, it was actually something that I was totally directed to go to by my inner voice.
I’ve learned a great deal from Lorrie over the years having attended her copywriting bootcamp teleseminars and several “in person” events. She is a loving and attentive teacher, she knows her stuff and communicates it very well… but this event was full of great information that people in marketing really need to know about how to communicate their message and gifts to the female market.
For me, I learned about how I can rise up out of my own mental noise and show up with joy and excitement, even though my life is in a great deal of turmoil. It was good to know that my soul was very expressive and communicates well… and I was able to listen.
I did alright as I developed more faith in my soul’s voice.
Who’s in charge of everything is not the government, your spouse, your kids or your community. It’s your spirit that’s running the show and it communicates all the time to you.
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Paul Newman - my own experience
By Kyle | September 30, 2008
Wanted to offer just a little bit to the passing of Paul Newman. I had the privilege of meeting him and spent a week with he and his family during the wedding of one of his daughters.
It’s funny how it is to be introduced to a cultural icon. On the one hand you feel sort of giddy with, “Oh my God… this is “so and so” and I’m hanging out with him/her.”, on the other hand it can be something much deeper. In other words, my experience with Paul and his family was that they were a good family and loved each other.
Paul and Joanne were gracious to everyone. I mean everyone. They treated all the people who served us throughout the week with respect and gratitude. They treated me with love and kindness, like I was welcome within their inner circle of family and friends without question.
Unique.
People in the position of fame or power can often seem distant and remote. They may seem unconcerned with others, or “entitled” to all the tending they receive. Paul Newman was quite different. He made a point of engaging in conversations with people at the hotel, in the airports, at the restaurants or meeting places we all went to. I felt graced with an incredible example of how to behave in the world and grateful for the lack of pressure I have on myself because I am not famous or a person with high visibility in the world.
Over the many years that he offered aid to many organizations providing social profit (non-profit) to the world, he was tireless in his determination to provide support to causes he believed in. He also encouraged all the people who knew him to be philanthropic and give to organizations we wanted to support through his example. His commitment to individuals and society is something that he also expressed one on one, which is what I witnessed. I wanted to share this perspective as well as my own feelings of gratitude that I was able to know him.
He will be missed but he’s left a powerful legacy with his life. Hopefully we can take the example he offered to heart and treat each other with kindness and love.
My own sense of death is that it isn’t final. We keep one and other alive eternally by remembering the gifts our life provided to others.
Blessed be….
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Friendship
By Kyle | September 28, 2008
Women are so lucky when it comes to their friendships. Women relate from the heart and we are devoted, not only to our girlfriends but to our children, our lovers and our families.
As I wander through this time in my life I’ve had amazing experiences with different people who I have always considered friends, but because of my busy life hadn’t spent much time with them.
Yesterday, I had a yard sale. Probably the first of many and they are an interesting way to pass the time. My sweet neighbor came by to chat a bit, as she hadn’t seen me in awhile. My son and her’s were the best of friends when they were very young and she and I had a natural connection on many levels. Tonight she came by to just let me know that if I needed anything, she and her husband wanted me to know that they are right there for me. A place to stay, a sailing trip whenever I want, a space on their boat in the harbor to just sleep there… just so much thoughtfulness.
A few hours before another friend brought over an entire dinner for me and Tyler to share! She teaches yoga and I coach her in exchange. It’s always been a wonderful exchange, but the perks for me are her amazing generosity with food and flowers… in addition to her amazing yoga classes.
These are women who are friends… and people who simply give back to others, naturally.
I’ve been graced with amazing people who love me with such sweetness… and I appreciate it.
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Who is in Control
By Kyle | September 26, 2008
Standing alone in our life requires a deep relationship with something more than everyday reality. “Alone” doesn’t mean that you don’t relate to others… rather, it means that you first relate to you and sense who it is that you can be vulnerable to.
There’s something really powerful about being absolutely clear about how to make our choices. If we feel lethargic, drained or negative you can bet that you are not really taking good care of yourself, as when you are running healthy spiritual energy through you - you feel great!
It’s not always easy to know what to do and requires a quiet mind where you can ask your inner wisdom as to what to do next. When you are feeling low there’s something keeping you from listening to the call of your soul.
Every day is a new one and everyone has good days and not so good days. Yet, when one is commited to listening to the call of their soul peace will ultimately come over you and things start to ease into a quiet ease and flow.
This morning I woke up before the sun came up. I was sort of rested as I had slept more than 4 hours. Of late, I sleep little and haven’t known if I was restless due to personal issues or if I was being influenced by energy that wasn’t really mine. As I lie awake I have a sense of how long I’ve struggled with sleeping… really since I was very young. It occurred to me that I’ve always had a sense of energy, which may have kept me up at night for most of my life. I’ve learned to simply pray. Before I would become upset and concerned about how tired I would be the following day. Not any longer… I just allow the lack of quiet sleep take me over and rest in not sleeping.
It’s not clear now what’s happening, but I do know that I have absolutely no control over it. The work is to be present for what is happening and allow it to simply be whatever it is. This is difficult if I’m focused on some particular outcome and not that difficult if I’m not. Now, I have no agenda… I don’t know what’s coming and I’m peaceful when I have the faith that what’s coming is perfect for my soul to experience.
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Energy
By Kyle | September 23, 2008
Energy is always the root of anything and the activator of the physical realities we experience. High or low.. bumps or bruises happen no matter what level of energy you possess. How the challenges are handled is relative to the level of energy you are running.
High vibration people handle things through peace… low vibration people handle things through rage, withdrawal or by running their energy off of other people.
People or things can never measure up to what the Divine can provide to you, even on their best day. Your success and joy depends on being aligned to source energy; connected with that instead of someone or something outside of you. The number one resource is the Divine or “God” - if you will …
As soon as one gets clear about and acts on it, magic happens.
Today, I had this rush of excitement as I felt my inner being blooming and percolating up to my conscious awareness. I may have recently been rejected - but I’m becoming more and more aware of how insignificant it is to be rejected when looking at my life through the lens of an energy field instead of my flesh, blood and bone femaleness.
What I want is the high vibration life and have had that for much of my life. Like I said, not without many bumps and bruises. I got to share that for a long time with another and now I get to have it all by myself. How to be in “peace” with this indicates something about what’s coming.
My choice is to continue to be in Peace with it all, love deeply regardless of what’s happened, let go with integrity and remain openhearted to all of life.
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Personal Commitment
By Kyle | September 21, 2008
A few weeks have wandered by since I posted last, but so much has been happening that I’ve been mostly mute…. I’m transforming; suddenly and completely.
Doesn’t it seem that transformation is in the air. There is no way to avoid knowing about the state of things in the world. The economic climate is far from “comfy” what with banks going under and the government stepping in to “save the day”. Hard working people like me, in fact, are losing their homes. My personal trajectory has been more than intense.
What’s good for me is what I feel going on is much deeper than what it appears and it’s positive on that level. It looks highly negative from the outside, but that would be an illusion.
This blog is now changing, as it hasn’t really reflected my inner workings as much as what I thought I ought to be talking about. Kind of like.. “what is my market needing to know” instead of what is my personal commitment to truth. My truth; not the market’s, not my neighbor’s, child’s, partner’s, friend’s, mother’s… really anyone else’s but my own.
The shift in the voice I intend to use could be viewed as professional suicide - but in truth there’s is nothing left to lose any longer. I’ve lost everything that I thought I valued, other than my heart full of love and my children. What’s most important to me I still have. What had to be removed from my life is already in motion.
Recently, I left town for two months to recover from a deep blow to my heart and a sudden need to release many of my personal dreams. While away, I managed to find some peace within the changes I experienced, yet found myself still tender. Upon returning home, it became very clear that I was going to have to sell everything I own, including my home. This is the home I’ve raised my family in for almost a decade, which made that reality equally difficult to swallow and extremely painful. Additionally, I also realized I could no longer provide the kind of service that I’ve trained myself to offer. My life work is changing, too.
All this transition in the space of 3 months. To say that I am overwhelmed would be accurate…. well more than that… I’ve been torn apart on all levels. Incredible times for me, for sure. I really feel like a spiritual warrior…. and deep inside, I knew that I had to just surrender
It’s clear that what’s coming for me is simply a microcosm of what’s coming for all of us. Change is upon us. We simply can’t continue to let fear rule our choices. All of us have a responsibility, no… an obligation… to develop deep faith in what I call Source Energy. You may call in “God” or “Universal Energy” or “Spirit”. Whatever your name for this power of love that we all share, is the “what” I am referring to.
Right now, it is time for you to stop trying to figure out how to make things right and simply focus on what it is that you want to see change and leave the “how” a function of the Divine.
None of us ought to entertain the luxury of a negative thought. We all have to listen to fearful realities every day - the reality of these times is hard to miss. If we don’t begin to balance the “real” things with more than hope - an unadulterated sense of power that each of us possess to transform our own lives and the lives of those we are in relationship with, through pure faith coupled with heartfelt action.
You are guided all the time by this unseen energy. Most of the time, though it’s very hard to actually hear what you are being guided to do. This is what I’m learning now and I believe what my work will now be about. Reading energy and communicating the inner voice of my client’s soul to them.
It appears that I’m making my way back to real time awareness. Stripped down to some bare bones; lean, shaky and sometimes unsure of everything… but I’m back.
I have a personal commitment to only serve truth. The truth of my being…
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Eve Ensler and the Vagina Monologues
By Kyle | August 18, 2008
This video is a “must see”… Eve Ensler is the creatrix of the Vagina Monologues, and she articulates why I do what I do. I know that the areas of my own journey that have been the most difficult are the areas that I desire the deepest healing…. so helping other people remember how magnificent and wonderful they are is clearly at the root of my passion and purpose.
“happiness exists in action, it exists in telling the truth, and saying what your truth is, and it exists in giving away what you want most.” Eve Ensler
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Full Moon - Lunar Eclipse August 16th
By Kyle | August 15, 2008
On August 16th at 2:18 p.m. PDT we will experience a full eclipse of the moon. Do you know what is the significance of an lunar eclipse is, and how it impact people…. or more specifically you?
It depends. Where the eclipse falls in the sky can be even more distinct for your life then just an eclipse occurring, which alone is significant.
The word “eclipse” stems from the Greek verbs ecleipo (to cease existing) and calypse (”to cover”). The Sun represents the logical aspects of life, and relates to “father”, the Moon represents the emotional aspects of life, and relates to “mother”. When the Moon moves into the shadow of the Earth for a few hours, we simply experience the Moon directly without the reflected light of the Sun. In essence we experience a deeper level of ourselves and can see things in a much different light.
This particular eclipse incorporates all three of the outer planets (Neptune, Uranus and Pluto), with Neptune at 23 degrees Aquarius being the closest. Neptune will be right next to the Moon which is at 24 degrees Aquarius during the eclipse.
What that indicates is that the mystical elements, or dreamy nature of Neptune further amplifies the Moon’s already spiritual elements so your intuition will be heightened - and your highest hopes and dreams easier to envision. Neptune enables us to feel the depth of connection we share with one and other, as we ARE all connected. If you allow Neptune’s influence to heighten your awareness, you are effectively allowing for a conscious connection with all that you are wanting to create.
Easier said than done, but worth the effort. It is falling on a weekend day, so my recommendation is to meditate, contemplate, be in nature, do something artistic… literally have some quiet and expansive FUN. Allow your mind to turn off, as it will (in other words don’t try to do something too awful productive… ) naturally, and make room for impressions and “God” nudges to make their way into your conscious mind.
The Aquarian ideal is community… everyone, all inclusive and expanded value for all. Let yourself dream of a future where your dreams, the dreams of your sisters and brothers, and the dreams of the planet are realized.
Blessed be….
The Queen
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Here’s the Truth
By Kyle | July 25, 2008
It’s funny what happens when you are faced with an enormous change. It may seem to have been forced on you by someone close to you, or just maybe… it occurred because you weren’t being honest with yourself about what was happening.
We all want to believe that the people in our lives have our best interest at heart, and on some level they do. Yet, you know… sometimes people are just selfish and they aren’t thinking about you at all.
The question then has to be asked, “Are you focused on you?”
I wasn’t. Not enough anyway… and the tumult of my life is forcing me to get real and terribly honest about a number of things. This is a good thing, and as much as I’d like to just blame others, my circumstances or something… anything, outside of me. I can’t.
I am an Amazon.
I’m a modern woman who is battling just like the historic Amazons for a way of life that makes me the center of my own existence.
Here a few things to consider.
- Are you doing more than is reasonable to make other people happy?
- Are you letting someone else’s opinion of you color how you feel about yourself?
- Are you spending a lot of energy wondering what other people are doing, feeling, needing or thinking?
- Do you spend time every day making you own personal connection to yourself - either through meditation or physical exercise?
- Are you scared to face a reality that is not really what you want to experience?
These are just a few of the things that I’ve been mulling over these past 6 weeks of my retreat. It’s been grueling, but I have the 4 Amazon Principles to work with and a lot of spiritual muscle that’s making this process pretty fucking amazing. One of those principles being “An Amazon Takes Responsibility for Herself”. What that implies is that EVERYTHING that I experience is a function of my own creation.
So, if a shit storm has arrived… what did I do to bring it to me? What is it’s ultimate purpose?
A few months ago, I remember stating that I wanted to “release all resistance” in my life… whatever was holding me back, well it had to go. That’s certainly what I’m experiencing right now… and it’s hard. But… and I did want this on some level. So, how to deal with it requires something emerging that I didn’t know I had available to me… it’s like giving birth to a child, but this time it’s me.
I get to sort out years of beliefs that just aren’t true…. beliefs about my value, worth and desirability. All handed to me by a person I trusted implicitly with my heart and soul. Do I change that perspective, or trust that there is something quite rich here for me to understand about my self.
I choose the later, and it’s making me fierce… in between feelings of tremendous pain, anger and sadness. Forgiveness is not easy, but it’s something that I believe is making me truly into the Amazon I’ll need to be to help you make yourself into one.
Suffice it to say… we are all in charge of our lives in every way and it’s not easy to accept that challenge, but it does offer some amazing power.
I’ve extended my time here… so expect more missives from a land of beauty and peace… for this battle weary Amazon…
The Queen
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